As I sit here, working some, daydreaming some, many thoughts rambling around. Listening, hearing, seeing, thoughts going back and forth. From a time ago, 2006, to now. Back and forth, to me, and others that have traveled the same path; not by choice mind you, but by being chosen.
I listen to people I work with laughing, teasing each other, joking, planning their night out for 1$ burger night at a local eatery/bar in town. I laugh some and also go into deep thought of all the others I know. I see fellow workers in the hall, smiling, saying hi, gossiping, talking to other friends.
Then my thoughts go to what others at this same moment are thinking, doing, saying. Not so much laughter, but maybe from happy memories they may have a smile or two with others. Family, friends, co-workers, of one that is now gone. Taken away too early, not here anymore as it is. We can't see her anymore, or say good morning, or smile as we pass in the hall.
The big C has won again. Taken a life way too young. This always hits me a certain way as I had cancer in 2006. I use the word "had" but one never really knows what tomorrow will bring. Every time I have a different sort of pain, a rash, a sore that just appears or bruises, I wonder, is it back? Am I going to have to go through that again?
But this is not about me, but it does hit home. When ever I hear of someone finding out they have cancer, I get quiet. I remember, I know, I feel, what they are experiencing and will go through to try and live. Whether I know them or not, I feel for them. The struggle begins.
Don't be sad. Celebrate life, such as it is.
Be brave, do what has to be done.
Things I need to be reminded about also.